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lurched to a cubicle and leaned against the padlocked swinging doors。 I stood there panting； sweating； wishing things had turned out some other way。
About fifteen minutes later； I heard voices and running footfalls。 I crouched behind the cubicle and watched Assef and the other two sprinting by； laughing as they hurried down the deserted
lane。 I forced myself to wait ten more minutes。 Then I walked back to the rutted track that ran along the snow…filled ravine。 I squinted in the dimming light and spotted Hassan walking slowly toward me。 I met him by a leafless birch tree on the edge of the ravine。
He had the blue kite in his hands； that was the first thing I saw。 And I can t lie now and say my eyes didn t scan it for any rips。 His chapan had mud smudges down the front and his shirt was ripped just below the collar。 He stopped。 Swayed on his feet like he was going to collapse。 Then he steadied himself。 Handed me the kite。
Where were you？ I looked for you； I said。 Speaking those words was like chewing on a rock。
Hassan dragged a sleeve across his face； wiped snot and tears。 I waited for him to say something； but we just stood there in silence； in the fading light。 I was grateful for the early…evening shadows that fell on Hassan s face and concealed mine。 I was glad I didn t have to return his gaze。 Did he know I knew？ And if he knew； then what would I see if I did look in his eyes？ Blame？ Indignation？ Or； God forbid； what I feared most： guileless devotion？ That； most of all； I couldn t bear to see。
He began to say something and his voice cracked。 He closed his mouth； opened it； and closed it again。 Took a step back。 Wiped his face。 And that was as close as Hassan and I ever came to discussing what had happened in the alley。 I thought he might burst into tears； but； to my relief； he didn t； and I pretended I hadn t heard the crack in his voice。 Just like I pretended I hadn t seen the dark stain in the seat of his pants。 Or those tiny drops that fell from between his legs and stained the snow black。
Agha sahib will worry； was all he said。 He turned from me and limped away。
IT HAPPENED JUST THE WAY I d imagined。 I opened the door to the smoky study and stepped in。 Baba and Rahim Khan were drinking tea and listening to the news crackling on the radio。 Their heads turned。 Then a smile played on my father s lips。 He opened his arms。 I put the kite down and walked into his thick hairy arms。 I buried my face in the warmth of his chest and wept。 Baba held me close to him； rocking me back and forth。 In his arms； I forgot what I d done。 And that was good。
EIGHT
For a week； I barely saw Hassan。 I woke up to find toasted bread； brewed tea； and a boiled egg already on the kitchen table。 My clothes for the day were
ironed and folded； left on the cane…seat chair in the foyer where Hassan usually did his ironing。 He used to wait for me to sit at the breakfast table before he started ironing……that way； we could talk。 Used to sing too； over the hissing of the iron； sang old Hazara songs about tulip fields。 Now only the folded clothes greeted me。 That； and a breakfast I ha