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good man and Betty khanum is so kind； you should see how she treats those orphans。
Why me？ Why can t you pay someone here to go？ I ll pay for it if it s a matter of money。
It isn t about money； Amir！ Rahim Khan roared。 I m a dying man and I will not be insulted！ It has never been about money with me； you know that。 And why you？ I think we both know why it has to be you； don t we？
I didn t want to understand that ment； but I did。 I understood it all too well。 I have a wife in America； a home； a career； and a family。 Kabul is a dangerous place； you know that； and you d have me risk everything for。。。 I stopped。
You know； Rahim Khan said； one time； when you weren t around； your father and I were talking。 And you know how he always worried about you in those days。 I remember he said to me； Rahim； a boy who won t stand up for himself bees a man who can t stand up to anything。 I wonder； is that what you ve bee？
I dropped my eyes。
What I m asking from you is to grant an old man his dying wish； he said gravely。
He had gambled whh that ment。 Played his best card。 Or so I thought then。 His words hung in limbo between us； but at least he d known what to say。 I was still searching for the right words； and I was the writer in the room。 Finally； I settled for this：
Maybe Baba was right。
I m sorry you think that； Amir。
I couldn t look at him。 And you don t？
If I did； I would not have asked you to e here。
I toyed with my wedding ring。 You ve always thought too highly of me； Rahim Khan。
And you ve always been far too hard on yourself。 He hesitated。 But there s something else。 Something you don t know。
Please； Rahim Khan……
Sanaubar wasn t Ali s first wife。
Now I looked up。
He was married once before； to a Hazara woman from the Jaghori area。 This was long before you were born。 They were married for three years。
What does this have to do with anything？
She left him childless after three years and married a man in Khost。 She bore him three daughters。 That s what I am trying to tell you。
I began to see where he was going。 But I didn t want to hear the rest of it。 I had a good life in California； pretty Victorian home with a peaked roof； a good marriage； a promising writing career； in…laws who loved me。 I didn t need any of this shit。
Ali was sterile； Rahim Khan said。
No he wasn t。 He and Sanaubar had Hassan； didn t they？ They had Hassan……
No they didn t； Rahim Khan said。
Yes they did！
No they didn t； Amir。
Then who……
I think you know who。
I felt like a man sliding down a steep cliff； clutching at shrubs and tangles of brambles and ing up empty…handed。 The room was swooping up and down； swaying side to side。 Did Hassan know？ I said through lips that didn t feel like my own。 Rahim Khan closed his eyes。 Shook his head。
You bastards； I muttered。 Stood up。 You goddamn bastards！ I screamed。 All of you； you bunch of lying goddamn bastards！
Please sit down； Rahim Khan said。
How could you hide this from me？ From him？ I bellowed。 Please think； Amir Jan。 It was a shameful situation。 People would talk。