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CHAPTER 51
Prepared
Ifound Jared and Jamie in our room； waiting for me； worry on both their faces。 Jared must have talked
to Jeb。
“Are you all right？” Jared asked me； while Jamie jumped up and threw his arms around my waist。
I wasn’t sure how to answer his question。 I didn’t know the answer。 “Jared； I need your help。”
Jared was on his feet as soon as I was done speaking。 Jamie leaned back to look at my face。 I didn’t
meet Jamie’s gaze。 I wasn’t sure how much I could bear right now。
“What do you need me to do？” Jared asked。
“I’m making a raid。 I could use some… extra muscle。”
“What are we after？” He was intense； already shifting into his mission mode。
“I’ll explain on the way。 We don’t have a lot of time。”
“Can I e？” Jamie said。
“No！” Jared and I said together。
Jamie frowned and let me go； sinking down onto the mattress and crossing his legs。 He put his face in his
hands and sulked。 I couldn’t look directly at him before I ducked out of the room。 I was already yearning
Jared followed as I retraced my path through the south tunnel。
“Why this way？” he asked。
“I…” He would know if I tried to lie or evade。 “I don’t want to run into anyone。 Jeb； Aaron； or Brandt；
particularly。”
“Why？”
“I don’t want to have to explain myself to them。 Not yet。”
He was quiet； trying to make sense of my answer。
I changed the subject。 “Do you know where Lily is？ I don’t think she should be alone。 She seems…”
“Ian’s with her。”
“That’s good。 He’s the kindest。”
Ian would help Lily—he was exactly what she needed now。 Who would help Ian when… ？ I shook my
head； shaking the thought away。
“What are we in such a hurry to get？” Jared asked me。
I took a deep breath before I answered him。 “Cryotanks。”
The south tunnel was black。 I could not see his face。 His footsteps did not falter beside me； and he
didn’t say anything for several minutes。 When he spoke again； I could hear that he was focusing on the
raid—single…minded； setting aside whatever curiosity he felt until after the mission was planned to his
satisfaction。
“Where do we get them？”
“Empty cryotanks are stored outside Healing facilities until they’re needed。 With more souls ing in
than leaving； there will be a surplus。 No one will guard them； no one will notice if some go missing。”
“Are you sure？ Where did you get this information？”
“I saw them in Chicago； piles and piles of them。 Even the little facility we went to in Tucson had a small
store of them； crated outside the delivery bay。”
“If they were crated； then how can you be sure —”
“Haven’t you noticed our fondness for labels？”
“I’m not doubting you；” he said。 “I just want to make sure that you’ve thought this through。”
I heard the double meaning in his words。
“Let’s get it done； then。”
Doc was already gone—already with Jeb； as we hadn’t passed him on the way。 He must have left right
behind me。 I wondered how his news was being taken。 I hoped they weren’t stupid enough to discuss it
in front of the Seeker。 Would she shred her human host’s brain if she guessed what I was doing？ Would
she assume I’d turned traitor entirely？ That I would give the humans what they needed with no
restrictions？
Wasn’t that what I was about to do； though？ When I was gone； would Doc bother to keep his word？
Yes； hewould try。 I believed that。 I had to believe that。 But he couldn’t do it alone。 And who would help
him？
We scrambled up the tight black vent that opened onto the southern face of the rocky hill； about halfway
up the low peak。 The eastern edge of the horizon was turning gray； with just a hint of pink bleeding into
the line between sky and rock。
My eyes were locked on my feet as I climbed down。 It was necessary； there was no path； and the loose
rocks made for treacherous footing。 But even if the way had been paved and smooth； I doubted I would
have been able to lift my eyes。 My shoulders； too； seemed trapped in a slump。
Traitor。 Not a misfit； not a wanderer。 Just a traitor。 I was putting my gentle brothers’ and sisters’ lives
into the angry and motivated hands of my adopted human family。
My humans had every right to hate the souls。 This was a war； and I was giving them a weapon。 A way
to kill with impunity。
I considered this as we ran through the desert in the growing light of dawn—ran because； with the
Seekers looking； we shouldn’t be out in the daylight。
Focusing on this angle—viewing my choice not as a sacrifice but rather as arming the humans in
exchange for the Seeker’s life—I knew that it was wrong。 And if I was trying to save only the Seeker；
this would be the moment when I would change my mind and turn around。 She wasn’t worth selling out
the others。 Even she would agree with that。
Or would she？ I suddenly wondered。 The Seeker didn’t seem to be as… what was the word Jared had
used？Altruistic。 As altruistic as the rest of us。 Maybe she would count her own life dearer than the lives
of many。
But it was too late to change my mind。 I’d already thought far beyond just saving the Seeker。 For one
thing； this would happen again。 The humans would kill any souls they came across unless I gave them
another option。 More than that； I was going to save Melanie； and that was worth the sacrifice。 I was
going to save Jared and Jamie； too。 Might as well save the repugnant Seeker while I was at it。
The souls were wrong to be here。 My humans deserved their world。 I could not give it back to them； but
I could give them this。 If only I could be sure that they would not be cruel。
I would just have to trust Doc； and hope。
I wondered how many human lives I would save。 How many souls’ lives Imight save。 The only one I
couldn’t save now was myself。
I sighed heavily。 Even over the sound of our exerted breathing； Jared heard that。 In my peripheral vision；
I saw his face turn； felt his eyes boring into me； but I did not look over to meet his gaze。 I stared at the
ground。
We got to the jeep’s hiding place bef