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same time？
A heavy wave of nausea rolled in my stomach as I saw the answer I’d been trying to believe didn’t exist。
The only wall I’d ever built between Melanie and me crumbled to dust。
No！Mel gasped。 And then screamed；NO！
The answer I must have known I would find。 The answer that explained my strange premonition。
Because I could save the Seeker。 Of course I could。 But it would cost me。 A trade。 What had Kyle
said？ A life for a life。
The Seeker stared at me； her dark eyes full of venom。
CHAPTER 50
Sacrificed
The Seeker scrutinized my face while Mel and I fought。
Don’t be stupid； Mel。 You of all people should see the potential of this choice。 Isn’t this what you
want？
But even as I tried to look at the happy ending； I couldn’t escape the horror of this choice。 This was the
secret I should die to protect。 The information I’d been desperate to keep safe no matter what hideous
torture I was put through。
This was not the kind of torture I’d expected： a personal crisis of conscience； confused and plicated
by love for my human family。 Very painful； nevertheless。
I could not claim to be an expatriate if I did this。 No； I would be purely a traitor。
Not for her； Wanda！ Not for her！Mel howled。
Should I wait？ Wait until they catch another soul？ An innocent soul whom I have no reason to
hate？ I’ll have to make the decision sometime。
Not now！ Wait！ Think about this！
My stomach rolled again； and I had to hunch my body forward and take a deep breath。 I just managed
not to gag。
“Wanda？” Jeb called in concern。
I could do it； Mel。 I could justify letting her die if she was one of those innocent souls。 I could let
them kill her then。 I could trust myself to make an objective decision。
But she’s horrible； Wanda！ We hate her！
Exactly。 And Ican’ttrust myself。 Look at how I almost didn’t see the answer…
“Wanda； you all right？”
The Seeker glared past me； toward Jeb’s voice。
“Fine； Jeb；” I gasped。 My voice was breathy； strained。 I was surprised at how bad it sounded。
The Seeker’s dark eyes flickered between us； unsure。 Then she recoiled from me； cringing into the wall。
I recognized the pose—remembered exactly how it felt to hold it。
A gentle hand came down on my shoulder and spun me around。
“What’s going on with you； hon？” Jeb asked。
“I need a minute；” I told him breathlessly。 I looked straight into his faded…denim eyes and told him
something that was most definitely not a lie。 “I have one more question。 But I really need a minute to
myself。 Can you… wait for me？”
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I nodded and walked as quickly as I could from the prison。 My legs were stiff with terror at first； but I
found my stride as I moved。 By the time I passed Aaron and Brandt； I was almost running。
“What happened？” I heard Aaron whisper to Brandt； his voice bewildered。
I wasn’t sure where to hide while I thought。 My feet； like a shuttle on automatic pilot； took me through
the corridors toward my sleeping room。 I could only hope that it would be empty。
It was dark； barely any light from the stars trickling down through the cracked ceiling。 I didn’t see Lily till
I tripped over her in the darkness。
I almost didn’t recognize her tear…swollen face。 She was curled into a tight； tiny ball on the floor in the
middle of the passageway。 Her eyes were wide； not quite prehending who I was。
“Why？” she asked me。
I stared at her wordlessly。
“I said that life and love go on。 Butwhy do they？ They shouldn’t。 Not anymore。 What’s the point？”
“I don’t know； Lily。 I’m not sure what the point is。”
“Why？” she asked again； not speaking to me anymore。 Her glassy eyes looked right through me。
I stepped carefully past her and hurried to my room。 I had my own question that had to be answered。
To my great relief； the room was empty。 I threw myself facedown on the mattress where Jamie and I
slept。
When I’d told Jeb I had one more question； that was the truth。 But the question was not for the Seeker。
The question was for me。
The question was would I—notcould I—do it？
Icould save the Seeker’s life。 I knew how。 It would not endanger any of the lives here。 Except my own。
I would have to trade that。
No。Melanie tried to be firm through her panic。
Please let me think。
No。
This is the thing； Mel。 It’s inevitable anyway。 I can see that now。 I should have seen it long ago。
It’s so obvious。
No； it isn’t。
I remembered our conversation when Jamie was ill。 When we were making up。 I’d told her that I
It wasn’t so much a lie as it was an unfinished sentence。 I couldn’t give her more than that—and stay
alive myself。
The actual lie had been given to Jared。 I’d told him； just seconds later； that I didn’t know how to make
myself not exist。 In the context of our discussion； it was true。 I didn’t know how to fade away； here inside
Melanie。 But I was surprised I hadn’t heard the obvious lie right then； hadn’t seen in that moment what I
was seeing now。 Of course I knew how to make myself not exist。
It was just that I had never considered that option viable； ultimate betrayal that it was to every soul on
this planet。
Once the humans knew that I had this answer； the one they had murdered for over and over again； it
would cost me。
No； Wanda！
Don’t you want to be free？
A long pause。
I wouldn’t ask you for this；she finally said。And I wouldn’t do it for you。 And I sure as hell wouldn’t
do it for the Seeker！
You don’t have to ask。 I think I might have volunteered… eventually。
Why do you think that？she demanded； her tone close to a sob。 It touched me。 I expected her to be
elated。
In part because of them。 Jared and Jamie。 I can give them the whole world； everything they want。
I can give themyou。I probably would have realized that… someday。 Who knows？ Maybe Jared
would have asked。 You know I wouldn’t have said no。
Ian’s right。 You’re too self…sacrificing。 You don’t have any limits。 You need limits； Wanda！
Ah； I