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it seemed to Katharine。 Whose voice was now going to
bine with them； or to strike a discord？
“Whose voice？” she asked herself； hearing a man inquire；
with great determination； for her number。 The unfamiliar
voice now asked for Miss Hilbery。 Out of all the welter of
voices which crowd round the far end of the telephone；
out of the enormous range of possibilities； whose voice；
what possibility； was this？ A pause gave her time to ask
herself this question。 It was solved next moment。
“I’ve looked out the train… 。 Early on Saturday afternoon
would suit me best… 。 I’m Ralph Denham… 。 But
I’ll write it down… 。”
With more than the usual sense of being impinged upon
the point of a bayo； Katharine replied：
“I think I could e。 I’ll look at my engagements… 。
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Hold on。”
She dropped the machine； and looked fixedly at the
print of the greatuncle who had not ceased to gaze；
with an air of amiable authority； into a world which； as
yet； beheld no symptoms of the Indian Mutiny。 And yet；
gently swinging against the wall； within the black tube；
was a voice which recked nothing of Uncle James； of China
teapots； or of red velvet curtains。 She watched the oscillation
of the tube； and at the same moment became conscious
of the individuality of the house in which she stood；
she heard the soft domestic sounds of regular existence
upon staircases and floors above her head； and movements
through the wall in the house next door。 She had
no very clear vision of Denham himself； when she lifted
the telephone to her lips and replied that she thought
Saturday would suit her。 She hoped that he would not say
goodbye at once； although she felt no particular anxiety
to attend to what he was saying； and began； even while
he spoke； to think of her own upper room； with its books；
its papers pressed between the leaves of dictionaries；
and the table that could be cleared for work。 She re
placed the instrument； thoughtfully； her restlessness was
assuaged； she finished her letter to Cassandra without
difficulty； addressed the envelope； and fixed the stamp
with her usual quick decision。
A bunch of anemones caught Mrs。 Hilbery’s eye when
they had finished luncheon。 The blue and purple and white
of the bowl； standing in a pool of variegated light on a
polished Chippendale table in the drawingroom window；
made her stop dead with an exclamation of pleasure。
“Who is lying ill in bed； Katharine？” she demanded。
“Which of our friends wants cheering up？ Who feels that
they’ve been forgotten and passed over； and that nobody
wants them？ Whose water rates are overdue； and the cook
leaving in a temper without waiting for her wages？ There
was somebody I know—” she concluded； but for the moment
the name of this desirable acquaintance escaped
her。 The best representative of the forlorn pany whose
day would be brightened by a bunch of anemones was； in
Katharine’s opinion； the widow of a general living in the
Cromwell Road。 In default of the actually destitute and
starving； whom she would much have preferred； Mrs。
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Hilbery was forced to acknowledge her claims； for though
in fortable circumstances； she was extremely dull；
unattractive； connected in some oblique fashion with literature；
and had been touched to the verge of tears； on
one occasion； by an afternoon call。
It happened that Mrs。 Hilbery had an engagement elsewhere；
so that the task of taking the flowers to the
Cromwell Road fell upon Katharine。 She took her letter to
Cassandra with her； meaning to post it in the first pillar
box she came to。 When； however； she was fairly out of
doors； and constantly invited by pillarboxes and post
offices to slip her envelope down their scarlet throats；
she forbore。 She made absurd excuses； as that she did
not wish to cross the road； or that she was certain to
pass another postoffice in a more central position a little
farther on。 The longer she held the letter in her hand；
however； the more persistently certain questions pressed
upon her； as if from a collection of voices in the air。
These invisible people wished to be informed whether
she was engaged to William Rodney； or was the engagement
broken off？ Was it right； they asked； to invite
Cassandra for a visit； and was William Rodney in love
with her； or likely to fall in love？ Then the questioners
paused for a moment； and resumed as if another side of
the problem had just e to their notice。 What did Ralph
Denham mean by what he said to you last night？ Do you
consider that he is in love with you？ Is it right to consent
to a solitary walk with him； and what advice are you
going to give him about his future？ Has William Rodney
cause to be jealous of your conduct； and what do you
propose to do about Mary Datchet？ What are you going
to do？ What does honor require you to do？ they repeated。
“Good Heavens！” Katharine exclaimed； after listening
to all these remarks； “I suppose I ought to make up my
mind。”
But the debate was a formal skirmishing； a pastime to
gain breathingspace。 Like all people brought up in a
tradition； Katharine was able； within ten minutes or so；
to reduce any moral difficulty to its traditional shape and
solve it by the traditional answers。 The book of wisdom
lay open； if not upon her mother’s knee； upon the knees
of many uncles and aunts。 She had only to consult them；
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and they would at once turn to the right page and read
out an answer exactly suited to one in her position。 The
rules which should govern the behavior of an unmarried
woman are written in red ink； graved upon marble； if； by
some freak of nature； it should fall out that the unmarried
woman has not the same writing scored upon her
heart。 She was ready to believe that some people are
fortunate enough to reject； accept； resign； or lay down
their lives at the bidding of traditional authority； she
could envy them； but in her case the questions became
phantoms directly she tried seriously to find an answer；
which